WC and I really hope 2021 will be an awesome year :)

          Remember when I mentioned that my back was hurting? Well, I've been going to the chiropractor for it and seeing a slight amount of progress since I began. Only thing is though, it gets exacerbated when I bend forward and lift things heavier than 10 lbs. So... In turn, my chiropractor has decided to take me out of work for a week. That means... I lose 4 days of work and I won't be paid for it because I have no more sick time TT^TT. In addition, I reported my work injury on Wednesday and automatically got Worker's Compensation filed for it. Honestly, I'm regretting reporting my injury because Worker's Compensation is more complicated than people think. It's a lot of paperwork and phone calls and making sure things are done correctly or lawyers will have to get involved. God, please help me. Please help me heal fully from my work injury as soon as possible so I can get back to taking care of my patients. Please let me get paid for the amount of time that I missed work. I can't afford not to be at work; I have tuition and bills to pay for. God PLEASE. 

        Aside from my back hurting, Mo and I had a fight about her lateness again. She called me psychotic, disrespectful, and self-centered just because I was upset about her lateness and because I was talking about my problems. I've been consoling her about her ex-boyfriend for a week now and she had the audacity to call me self-centered and foolish. Why does everything always seem to be my fault? Like I'm the bad guy for trying to cut someone off that I thought had changed their ways. She comes off very manipulative and she forced me to go to church with her, which was something I had to do against my will. Sometimes  I wonder if it's even worth continuing this toxic friendship with her because the more chances I give, the more misery I put myself in. I don't mean to sound like a victim, but others are noticing it too. She's a bit of a sociopath. She can preach and spit bible verses all she wants, but just because you're a God worshipper doesn't mean you're exempt from being a bad person. 

        God, please help me get rid of my depression and anxiety and help me find a hobby or something that doesn't have to do with eating, sleeping, and working all the time. Please let me find the motivation to get things done again. I just want to live a more productive and healthier life where I don't have to seek other people's approval. I wish to be independent of people and happy. Amen.