I'm Back! I think?

I am really bad at updating this, huh? There's really no way that I can even rationalize as to why. Perhaps it's because I'm just plain lazy and I don't have the motivation to write or blog like I used back in the end of middle school and throughout high school. I don't know, but I don't have as much worth writing or typing about lately. I mean, I'm basically a loser? Hopefully that'll change by next year. I need to stay focused. I have to lose at least 10 pounds before 2017 and then lose more weight. I just want to be a healthier and happier version of myself. I'm struggling with trying to stay optimistic, but realistic. I'm at least trying. What else? I've gained several pounds since I began night shift. Now I'm contemplating if it was worth it. Decisions, decisions....