Somehow I feel lonesome these days. Mostly in a platonic way. Romantic? I wouldn't say so much- I have to get my life together first. Well.... hmm. I don't know. The past year and these first two weeks into 2015 feel as if I'm always the first one to text people. For once, I'd like people to take me into consideration and take the effort to get in touch with me first. Well, because I feel as if I text the person the first time, and I don't get a reply after the first message I sent, it's like I'm being ignored for something I said or did wrong or maybe they just don't want anything to do with me at the moment. Moreover, if I don't get a reply, I have to keep sending text after text and ramble until I get a reply. Most of the time when I finally get a reply, it's usually along the lines of, "K. Lol. Lmao. Cool." I find that irksome because I put all my thoughts and feelings and effort into a whole paragraph. Sometimes I start to feel as if I'm bothering the recipient of my texts.
I don't know. Maybe I'll just stop texting people I frequently text for a while. Though I wonder if I'll even come across their mind first and text me first for a change.
Also, I guess I should appreciate the solitude that is given to me. It'll probably give me a peace of mind. Maybe being alone isn't too bad. I'll just bask in it until someone offers me a hand and leads me into their world.
I hope I get a job soon and I hope I make some new genuine friends that'll take me into consideration. I'll just let go of the ones that don't even bother with me anymore (unless they needed a favor from me).
