Well, well, well...The first week of the year has flown by, and I'm in awe. I'm still here. Still striving despite the physical, emotional, and mental fatigue. Good job, Sasha. What is there to say about today?
Where to begin? Well, I started the day off by waking up. OBVIOUSLY. I woke up to a plethora of notifications on my phone and a missed call from my boyfriend. He actually called me five times today. I wonder if he misses me. If he does, he will say it.
On the other hand, I was on the phone for a good 2 hours with Capella, having a conversation with my enrollment specialist about my upcoming enrollment and ways to get through the program. Since pulling the trigger and going for it, I've been quite on edge about things lately. Is my being busy the solution to all my issues? Will this help me become the independent and confident version of myself that I was before Miguel came into my life again? Man, I hope so. I've come to a conclusion: Men are not as attracted to women who are so immersed in them. They want nonchalant women. The type that can leave them at any time and not care.
The ones who simply elevate and move on. Perhaps it's time I follow my friends' advice and make it a reality: Stop making myself so available to Miguel and lock in so I can become the most successful and confident version of myself. That way, I won't need to rely on a partner to validate my existence. And to simply walk away the moment someone crosses me and my boundaries a second time after I have given them a chance to redeem themselves. No ifs, ands, or buts. I will fade away and let people lose me like I used to. Even if it means losing them too, in the process. Maybe that's the only way they will learn. To lose access to me, the kindness and care that I bring to their lives. I just don't have the emotional capacity for people who take me for granted.
Yup. This guy misses me. He called for the 6th time today. I just got off the phone with him, talking about what he's up to and speaking about my master's degree program.
Aside from school, I also called Driver's Ed to ask about my lessons and the road test. This will be my second time trying to get my driver's license in 8 years. May things work in my favor this time around. Hopefully, I get my driver's license so I can get my convertible and flex on these hoes. Just kidding. It's been a dream of mine to get a sports car that is a convertible and has a huge spoiler. So I hope it all falls into place soon.
In addition, I went to the mall with Tatiana and got myself some Labubu sweatshirts from Uniqlo. I didn't buy them for the Labubu design, but rather for their comfort and design. Here are some pictures of today's events. There are also pictures of my friends from our 2023 trip because I miss them so much. I hope I have another trip with them again. MANIFESTING THAT SHIT ✨
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