Dear God,
I am a nervous wreck right now. My back pain may have subsided in my lower back area, but the pain has climbed up to my thoracic spine. I'm scared. I'm scared of what my body is gonna be capable of in the long run. Will I be able to do things the way I used to? Will things go back to normal like before? All I want for Christmas is to be not have any back pain, to not have any breathing problems, and to lose weight. I'm not in the best state right now. I haven't slept well in days. Please let these issues go away. I beg of you. I want to be able to enjoy Christmas with the family and not worry about my health so much. It's very energy and time-consuming when I could be doing more productive things. God please let me sleep well tonight and wake up to see another glorious day. I beg of you.
As for my relationships with people, I hope there isn't any bad blood between us all. I just needed to disappear to find myself. I just don't want to worry about stepping on egg shells when I talk to them. I just don't want any of the toxicity anymore. I want to start a new.
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