So, where do I even begin? I can't believe it's been more than a year since I last posted on this thing. Though I wonder if anyone even cared enough to take a look at this. It's not as if I'm some famous blogger who writes gold.
Anyway, a lot has happened through 2015. From receiving my first job as a professional butt wiper fresh out of high school to getting into a car crash in my dad's car while he was trying to teach me how to drive for the first time. Honestly, I don't know what came over me during the time that I was sitting in the driver's seat. Did I freeze? Was I distracted? It happened all too quickly. Not to mention it was the day after my father's birthday. Some birthday gift huh? Whatever happened still remains a mystery to me. To this day, I'm still traumatized. I have flashbacks of the incident almost every night, and I dread seeing it every single time I close my eyes to go to sleep. Hopefully I'll get over my fear of driving and anxiety, that I'll have the confidence to get behind the wheel again. I'm turning 21 in two weeks and I feel as if I'm the only person in my 20s who doesn't know how to drive. Ugh. I NEED TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER.
As for my job, I'm quite surprised that I still have it. Though I still have some personal issues that I need to get over. I did make some close friends though. Well only two, but the lesser, the better right? Also, by personal issues, I mean "fitting in." Apparently, to others, I'm too serious, too quiet, and need to smile more often. To be honest, I feel like these people want me to apologize for being myself. I mean, I'm not the most outgoing person on the planet, but I'm not bad once people get to know me. I have a crude and dry sense of humor, but I manage to make others laugh once in a while. I don't know....I guess once I transfer to the night shift for the float team, I'll be able to meet new people and make even more friends. I will miss some people from the unit that I'm currently working in, but I believe this transition will benefit me in several ways. I would state them, but there's way too many to list, hehe.
Hmm....What else? I've temporarily deleted majority of my social media apps from my phone for the next two weeks. Who knows? Maybe I'll be able to get some necessary shit done! I guess I can use the allotted time to study for the driving learner's permit test and then move onto some ACTUAL driving classes. Afterwards, I'll try to save up for a nice car! What else? I guess I'll try to begin my so-called SUMMER FITNESS JOURNEY. I'm just getting tired of LITERALLY rolling off the bed to get ready for work in the afternoon. I want to feel lighter when walking too. My ankles and feet are also beginning to hurt more easily when walking and standing for too long. I should stop with the midnight snacking too, along with the stress eating and eating when I'm bored.
By the way, I have writer's block. So excuse my awkwardness to whomever is even taking the time to read this lol. Hopefully I'll be able to update this more often than my journal that I have to physically write in.
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